Magic Child

January 24th, 2018

From my experience I believe most children have a “will” to speak.  It is evident from the fact that a few children choose not to speak—at least not on a “normal” schedule.  Learning on average for a child during developing years is a new word every 90 minutes.  That type and length of a power learning curve is sheer magic.  If you are a parent or work with children, research has found that reading to children is more effective than phonetics, TV shows or silly YouTube videos.  Learning to read early will increase a child’s rate of new word mastery and including  young children in family discussions aids in their emotional growth.

To discover the magic and usefulness for the pool of data children are born with but seem to lose the unnecessary portions by around age six took a few years for me to realize but I was directed by a clue from a fiction novel.  This extra data is similar to a “universal” part where you only use attachments needed for specific applications.  I always feel a little wasteful tossing those extra pieces away.  At best I think you need to be content with recycling those extra parts but the extra data children are endowed with may have a very practical use.  In the book Practical Demon Keeping by Christopher Moore a young man is bonded to a demon that feeds on humans.  Learning the meaning and power of choice in “no” was essential to their forced relationship and being “done” seemed the only hope for this young man.  I think we are all strapped to a demon and securing no and done is an element we humans all share.  In the story, as the hero completed steps to secure done he started to generate relationships with a mixed bag of individuals that in no way appeared predestined for him to meet or even have associations that were beneficial.  These connections materialized from this extra internal data to blend with any type of group or persons and not from the character’s life experience disclosed or his existing developed structure.  As a facilitator for years I recommended this book but never told my students why.  I was hopeful that what I discovered from the story would be seeded into their unconscious to assist them when they were ready to look at securing “we” in their lives.  “No” and “done” secure balance between movement and nutrition but “we” secures potential.

The magic update that each child appears to obtain upon birth we will discuss next month but I believe we have space to take a quick look at the consequences when as children we become aware that we are not the universe.  The “truth” was incorrect; lots of stuff and other folks here.  We spend our life virtually in a trial and error struggle to discover the nature of a “truth” that defines the state we were born into.  But the state of creation is a state of imagination and can’t ever be an absolute—a state that disallows change by definition.  We might preference some patterns (or a lot of patterns-survival) as story indexes but the daily changing stories we tell ourselves and others is the very nature of creation.  Every moment we create life, the belief in that moment evokes the energy to generate a demonstration.  And as long as we don’t  take any of this process seriously, the next moment, the next imagined story, the next new belief, the refreshed demonstration, is a creation.  We have a game and it is magic.





Real Magic

December 16th, 2017

I have continued to note the magic in human life for the last 50 plus years to date but I doubt if I could provide a clear timeline for the realizations.  Some paths of discovery take years to unfold and others circle or merge into new trails of revelation.  Science has been the greatest resource.  It appears that we humans make up a lot of stories, we believe it all to be true, we don’t like being wrong and we see patterns even where there are none.  And I guess, real or not, it all has an effect on us but science is looking for what is real.  I’m good with all of this but I thought we made it all up.  Over the next few blogs I will muse over the simple human magic, real or not, that affects us all.

Today, science believes that a child is not born a “blank slate” to learn about life but comes well equipped with a battery of data.  This data is more like a guidebook than an encyclopedia.  It aids in facilitating the segment or section of human life that we integrate into (family, culture, location).  After a few years most of it is dumped or uploaded onto some cloud site that Google doesn’t own yet.  Now that is some pretty cool magic.  Perhaps, in a universe with no time, there are no past lives but every human is born with a current update.  And a newborn’s perception is that they are all of existence.  Not one with the universe, not connected to all but they are all of it.  What a relief when you discover that you are not everything and also a huge break in property taxes.  I dig this new science/magic but I’m still confused about what is real.

Remember, by magic I mean producing an effect in life by your attention to your statement of will, a consideration for your presence now.  I’m not referring to the “magic stage” of development that the human race instigated hundreds of thousands of years ago.  As a result all children go through the “magic” stage of development starting around 18 months.  This is when they start to make the distinction between self and other on an emotional and feeling level.  While learning to differentiate between self and the exterior environment they encounter a superstitious, fantasy, magical mode of thinking that lasts for a few years.  Careful, don’t allow all the research and predictability to mute the magic.  The fact that a child is born thinking and feeling as if they were the entire universe and over time develop along a schema to believe they are limited in life as an internal package located in a sea of stuff does not negate the mystery.  Science has no idea how or why this happens but they have a story and labels.  Yes, we all make up our best bet stories for what we don’t know, we believe them and defend them, name all the stuff external and stay perpetually confused how we feel internally about all the above.  Now that is a truth and a real magic trick (maybe-go easy on the certainty).


Parts needed for magic

November 19th, 2017

In my late twenties, a review of my concept of magic would have been that I could generate change in conformity with my will if the structure was in place to support it or if I could discover the correct structure via trial and error.  The statement of will would need to be formatted as a request and supported internally with an iconic consideration of value.  At this point of my life I began to entertain the idea that everything (atoms-the base of all objects) is unstable and in fact “blink” and thus a change would be only a different creation and not an adaptation.  A creation is a request to be with a vector suggesting potential (stages, steps or levels as creations) which would produce the internal concept of value.  For example, a change or new version of me “feels” appropriate (of value) now; or, I need to do things that make me happy, etc.

New also to my life at this time was a growing number of requests from other folks to teach them “magic,” help them with it, or do it for them.  The third being the most prevalent and, of course, absurd.  With my education and background I started teaching and learned a few “tricks” from helping some folks along the way.  For most students, what they thought of as their will was in fact someone else’s demand for them, a failed expectation with no statement of will, a belief which is a form of trance and/or an assortment of other “shadow” experiences.  Everything was a demand, though at times polite, and rarely indicated any reflection of value.  I started teaching students to discover “their will,” anchor into it via the body and become present while learning to discern from where distractions sourced.  The long journey of learning to secure “no” and “done” began; converting all demands to requests.

I didn’t teach from my knowledge of anything but I did create some structure or guidelines.  The training material was revealed from the students as I pried open the doors of their experience.  The content was framed by structure as I learned life potential was and the context emanated as students generated opportunities for learning.  Sweet, simple and profound.

Most folks see life as a task and they wish to know what to do to enact their will.  Difficult to hear that life is about being and not doing—the will to be.  And most folks don’t understand what being present and conscious is.  We have all experienced chatting with a friend while driving and missing an off-ramp—a shadow of you was driving and not present or conscious for the exit.  Perhaps less dangerous than crossing the street while day-dreaming, climbing a ladder or proposing marriage while “in love” with a stranger.  Don’t be blindsided by the concept of human potential.  It would need to include all the opportunities for failure as well as success.  All are options and the selection is performed as a person “sets-up” for their next “blink” into consciousness.  It happens like magic.


Magic Growing Up

October 5th, 2017

Aleister Crowley  said “Magick is the science and art of causing change to occur in conformity with will” (Magick in Theory and Practice).  You might think that a young boy who understood that concept and produced several demonstrations pre-nine would be obsessed with a long list of “I wants” but that was not my state.  I was fascinated that such potential was difficult to keep conscious and the results never felt real in the body.  Jean Piaget , I discovered later, would say I had not developed the structure yet to understand the experience.  Sure enough, six years later I was lost in a very dark woods and I requested, out loud, with no real ears to hear, help seeing in this total darkness.  A glow came and lit the path through the overgrown woods to safety.  I know, this is all crazy stuff but I got a clue to my magic.

Perhaps two clues  but it took some years to sort them out.  This reported event was a “request”, a genuine need and not an experiment.  The universe is made of stuff and space with some type of force in the space.  The stuff is defined and has location; the nature of stuff is limitation.  Imagination would thrive in the space and there is force to drive or create.  I didn’t request a flashlight, map or even a guide.  It was a request to imagine seeing in the dark.  Dark would be the imagined absence of light; right.  A normal human need is a demand (i.e., “I can’t see”)—communication about stuff from stuff—a personal defined me or my issue.  If you “will” a change you need to talk to the purveyor of change.  The value of stuff and most things defined is that they are redundant and predictable; resistant to change by design.  A demand is a statement not willing to except a no, the world of redundant stuff and rejection to change.  Imagination requires the full spectrum of possible, and better yet, a secure “no” provides steps or gradients in imagination without an absolute no or not possible.  Potential and absolute are an oxymoron.

Second clue was that the request was from some felt point internal to a potential external.  It was not a request for survival for that is not even a range, and give me a break, secured on one end with an absolute; death.  This was from a genuine internal feeling that a potential existed but it was not within my limited range, which of course is why it would be external.  Uncertain, unknown but possible with a tiny bit of trust which is what potential really is.  Again, this second clue required that I mature in structure.  To understand the value of life you need to clean your room, put your toys away and do your chores.  Growing up is essential to perceive potential.  Your years of discipline work has paid off.



The First Magic

September 24th, 2017

In my preschool writing tablet I recorded my name, age of six and two sentences: “Everything is a glow.  Everything is united.” I saw “glows” in and around people, animals, most plants and some objects.  These glows when quizzed talked to me; in my head of course.  Yes, I spent a lot of time alone but magic for me at six was communication from a perceived glow of light.  I recall seeing a cool “art deco style chair” in the dump.  The chair of a king, perhaps, and in our local dump.  From the safe edge of the dump I noticed a faint glow in the chair but it was reluctant to respond to my inquiry about  its association to royalty.  I persisted with “why are you there?”  The glow raised above the chair and replied with a resounding “I hold form.”  I got a clue to the source of my glows and I never believed glows to be guides, ghosts or souls of the dead.  By age seven I experimented successfully with creating an image of an object, sending it to someone and observing them act on it.  No words, clues or body language utilized.  At seven I inspired my mother to buy me a pipe rack and humidor.  I had no idea what the thing was but I saw it in a store window on a walk alone and sent the “picture” to mom.  And I have no idea how she even found the silly thing or why she went into that little cigar store downtown.  Magic by seven had matured for me to having my statement of will materialize.

I discovered that glows are “imagined ideas” with enough attention on them to make them “glow.”  I also learned that it is a challenge to hold a subconscious idea conscious and attend to it for any length of time.  And the physical object, the pipe rack, was my anchor to keep the experiment in reach of my conscious awareness.  The story felt very much like a dream and would have been quickly forgotten or perceived an imagined event.  The glows eventually faded and transformed to pure kinetic perception and today I know that it is the repetition, the redundancy, of the attention and not the duration.  Is that not what the advertising industry does to put a purchase idea into our world?

All the atoms in the Universe blink and therefore we must blink.  I know you don’t feel the exchange when the atoms in the chair you are sitting on transform into the mass called you.  That is fine, there is a very long list of ideas we hold true that are not really a truth in demonstration.  As all of this starts to become conscious the nature of truth will be shaken for all of us and that is why I’m facilitating a webinar on “Surviving the Cultural Change.”

The magic in your world will change as your world changes.  It lives just at the edge between structure (what we know that works) and imagined potential (what we don’t know that may work better).  The Cultural Memes may grow the structure but you need to cultivate your magic.



Wise to have a bigger view

September 9th, 2017

As many of you know, I have all of Ken Wilber’s books and I like his written material.  With his training programs, his model and his target group are different than mine but I believe his work is valid.  He is working with the leading edge “Post-modern” group of “elites” that are destined to enact their Post-modern cultural change and his model is a little complicated for most.  I prefer the larger wave of “modern” folks growing away from the “traditional” period and acclimating to this rational but quick changing wave of cultural change.  I think most folks need time to secure into the demand of the “modern” wave.  The absence of an absolute truth is not an easy adjustment and some training will aid in learning to secure into other options than the partial truth, the truth now.  Ken speaks of partial truth being a property of Post-modern but I see that predominates in the Modern wave group I’m working with.  I imagine this could be the “green meme” bleeding into my otherwise “orange” circle.

Ken has just released three new books and in Integral Meditation he makes point of the fact that everyone needs to Grow Up as well as Wake Up.  For all of you out there that participated in my Preceptorial Training Program, he is now acknowledging working with stages to mature (Our first two years of training) as you Wake Up to progressions in states.

The next book is Trump and a Post-truth World.  Short and a good read. Ken believes all this chaos is a self-correction and his material does support a bigger view of the destruction we are witnessing every day in the news.  Nice to find something hopeful to entertain.

And the last is a monster 800 plus page book entitled The Religion of Tomorrow.  Big books are difficult to carry around and it took me over a year to finish Sex, Ecology, Spirituality.  I scanned through the new book and have not found a compelling page to lock in my attention but I’m hopeful.  I recommend all three but have not read the third one yet.  But with “Rome” burning I think we all need something to fill the time.


A Work Along a Stream

August 29th, 2017

A range with a secured thread in gradients running end to end would afford you the ability to project the concept of you at any useful location in the range and to both move your location at will and to zoom in or out to determine levels of discernment.  A range secured with no would be 100% “no” at one end and at the other end “no” would be nonexistent.  Yes is the default setting to produce a state of being—yes, I am.  Some examples are, one could say no to smoking whether they ever had that habit or not.  But the end point, or any point, never forms an absolute.  You could say no to cake but on a friend’s birthday indulge.  You could be open to accept all gifts but still decline something illegal or stolen.  Do you see how this style of range gives more autonomy than a dichotomy with zero in the center splitting the range as opposites?  And with a secured range you can zoom in to make a detailed discernment and then zoom out to gain an overall view.  No is a very powerful tool.

You may enrich and expand the power of your ranges and if you have an interest, join my webinar on “Surviving the cultural changes.”  But before you chase off seeking more wisdom and tricks let us take a deeper look at life with a secured range.  I invite you to return for a moment to the metaphor of a stream from last month’s blog.  A stream does not produce the water or even alter the quantity.  At best a stream distributes water wherever it wanders guided by the direction of the lowest path.  It seeks a balance in level and “moves” to discover it.  Water is a traditional metaphor for the  force or energy of life and I used the concept of a stream as a potential with movement and location metaphorically as a human life potential.  Again, with the caution that this is just a model; a conception tool.  The question at this point is where does a “stream” disconnect from its potential.

Not just the existential, losing connection to source, but every deviation in a stream will be very abstract because it is a object.  At best we may consider a list of things that happen to streams.  Streams get diverted by landslides, beavers and power plants to name a few.  The blocking could be so great that the stream becomes a puddle, pond or a lake.  It could merge with another stream and lose all identity or contribute to grandness; perhaps useful as shipping or agricultural.

Humans also require movement, real or imagined.  But for humans balance, or structure, is paramount.  Their potential often gets diverted by distraction (drugs, booze, sex, shopping, etc.) and they confuse knowing for a direction or a catalyst.  A range from inspiration to obsession.  They frequently hold on to past concepts or events as a truth and lose sight of potential.  A range from a positive trigger to total depression.  And they crave interpersonal relationships, joining groups and altruist causes.  This range spans from being enriched by interpersonal relationships to being a burned-out devotee.  A human is not a stream but you can walk with another human along a stream and notice the “stream” of their potential, or better yet, your stream.




Food in your future?

July 28th, 2017

A new stream, creek, brook or river may wander changing course frequently during its youthful years.  They all have a source and a downhill invitation to explore, some born with a route and others develop their track within the range the path to the ocean.  All streams must adhere to conservation for the available supply of water is finite in a closed system.  If two or more streams merge, one or all will lose continuation of its label; not the fault of the path but the choice of the one who names.  Purpose is also left to chance with no requirement for a stream to do, only to be.  Slope and volume provide the drive but these elements offer no more importance than distance and service.  Beauty brings attention to a stream and fall adds charm and sound.  The stream banks form to secure the boundaries reserving the privilege to outstretch when required.  Its destiny lies in the hands of nature and man.  The value of all is eminent in the movement of water.

Dear water, clear water, playful in all your streams,
As you dash or loiter through life who does not love
To sit beside you, to hear you and see you,
Pure being, perfect in music and movement?

Stream by Szots Andras

When you are a small part of a very large scheme it is difficult to comprehend the whole so we design a metaphoric model.  Great tool but risky when you attempt to compare the process of an object to the process of a human.  Void of documented proof that aliens have contributed anything to our plant renders our world a closed system.  Conservation stands but I believe we are not lacking anything, the distribution is only way out of balance.  People are self-corrective systems, and unsecured, they maintain this state of imbalance as a redundant anchor (survival).  The avoidance of change and the fear (threshold) to embrace a random potential generates some interesting and familiar scenarios.  How many folks are waiting for someone to provide a plan to produce this needed balance?  How many accept this “state of lacking” anticipating balance post-mortem?  How many participate in maneuvers (distractions-sex, drugs and whatever) to avoid the gateway to potential—threshold;  an engagement moving faster than you can control?  Every stream begins as a flood; out of control water.

To develop the personal discipline to secure no as an action in your everyday life is the first step to converting those human filters from expecting less to accepting a preference as a gain.  Our immune system is our biological no.  Laws form our cultural/social no.  We inhabit the “water” planet and what we both share is a need for containment as structure to guide the movement to a useful potential.  How many floods have we humans incurred in our history?  How many floods have you experienced?  Time to take the action of securing “no.”


A Stream

June 28th, 2017

Can you imagine having no form and being somewhere in weird formless void?  You could be a thought, a comparative thought rather than competitive thought.  Human children seem to arrive in form with comparative awareness for which Fisher Price has made a fortune.  A comparative thought would not need to be an element of space and time (object), but it would need a consideration that something preempted such a state of being—a creation for potential to be.  Such an act would by design be impersonal and timeless or there would exist a preference (bias) rather than a potential to compare.  A comparative though would be essential if you were to select a preference.  Of course, choosing a potential would be the only act you could orchestrate and you could perform such a task by attention to that partiality.  Consider attention as a state of consciousness characterized by a concentration on a single thought, especially one preferentially selected from a complex, with a view to limiting or clarifying receptivity by narrowing the range of stimuli (dictionary reference).  I consider that such a level of concentration would generate compression leading to form but if you’re uncomfortable with that, we could at least agree that it would produce a force.

Potential is the capacity of being or becoming.  Aware is the state or condition of having knowledge; consciousness.  The root for the word aware is wary or cautious.  The force has become an energy that has moved the potential into a range from known to new; out of a redundancy or survival.  Now we have a game that may lead to experience, the state of having done something.  To maintain the initial state of balance from being potential without preference, all potential would need to be energized into a chaotic deterministic state—still in balance but activated (modeled after but independent of the creation state—a movement from timeless).  Each created potential would those become a vector, an expression of force with a directional arrow.  An attention to a preference in potential would direct a comparative thought into an energy force that I call a “stream.”  Can you imagine being a stream of energized potential with a starting point and a direction?

I envision compression because I believe form is coded by torque or particle spin which sufficient compression would cause.  The number of streams may be finite but within the containment (again, compression) of a potential each stream would be near infinite (all possible within range).  A moving stream needs to deal with speed bumps and distractions.  When humans experience such they torque, get ill and adrift of their stream (or path); my view.  Perhaps this is a large enough splash for one month.  Next month we will explore the potential of a meandering stream.









Another Complection

May 22nd, 2017

Special thanks to all of The Order of The Ascended Rose staff and teachers.  Because of your diligence I was able to initiate the Preceptorial Training Program and the Advanced Healing Techniques Program.  Fun programs and they both continued for a time after OAR closed down.  Three years ago I taught the final Healing program and dumped the material, handouts, notes, etc.  The last two folks in the PTP program should have graduated in September of 2016 but instead we have our final meeting this May.  I have closed that program but saved the core of the material to design the site next winter.  Perhaps another fun adventure and a chance to share again with past staff and teachers.

The goal of Preceptorial Training was to provide folks with an opportunity to learn that a reaction is not a choice.  Power is the ability to perceive two or more options and choice a preference; consciously.  All choices bear consequences and the most important fact may just be making the choice.  When I started PTP my vision was to provide four post-PTP Graduate retreats.  The events started out as a Spring Break retreat weekend but the topics were too large to do in a single weekend.  I attempted to split the topics but difficult to hold continuity for two events a year apart.  I redefined the four topics as four week-long meditation retreats.  Great when at a retreat location away from home but weak when done close to home to accommodate folks price-wise.  The 2016 Spring Break Retreat was beyond the range of the four topics and I only did it because I got inspired by some of Ken Wilber’s events.  The 2017 Spring Break was the final PTP event and an in-depth version of the 2016 event.  We are now done!

As closure to the Preceptorial Program I would like to comment on the need for the four follow-up topics.  These created more confusion and questions than anything else in the body of work.  As a metaphor, imagine talking a friend into purchasing a hand gun.  They might gain a sense of power and security with their new acquisition.  For sure they will need to increase their attention.  This act alone should make them more conscious and accountable for their actions.  An unconscious reaction with a gun places you in the realm of a shadow experience.  You may have lost control but you are still accountable.  Two much structure may also blind-side a person.  There is no perfection in the human experience and even less in the unconscious habitual side.  If you follow all the rules with attention on the rules and not the gun you are open to shadow also.  You have to be present all the time.  To make that stipulation you need to perceive a value for your relationship to and with a weapon.  A value may establish a state of you being a conscious pistol shooting enthusiast.  These four topics complete the work and secure the range and potential for you to fulfill your initial vision when joining PTP.  Thanks—it has been fun.