A Hug and a Push Count

October 2nd, 2015

If you compress “nothing” into something (a space) and leave it alone it will decompress at a rate (time) back to “nothing” again. The nature of a space/time continuum. The nothing could be a potential and the compression could be invoking energy into the potential to produce a demonstration. The potential releases the energy instilled in the act of decompression; the demonstration could be perceived as becoming a past event. Now we have a time experience. You could say the Universe as a chaotic system is a state of selecting potentials to compress and allow them in turn to decompress. This of course would be going on continually producing the perception of a consistent space/time package. Now we have a playing field for a time with the habit of change but with the illusion of being permanent.

In the act of compression the system would induce spin to code the potential and direct the activity of demonstration. In any cycle a given potential with a different spin rate could produce a uniquely different demonstration. Now we have a game with the power of choice expressed in spin rate. We have also created a future as a choice for potential.

You would think the system would just be random but chaotic systems generate strange attractors that sort the potential. Because there is a sorting agent and a future we would have a potential preference. The system would of course preference what selections supported its continued existence or it would show signs of entropy. Ah, a timeless process creating the illusion of a progressing space/time experience. Any potential uncompressed would have near infinite energy but compressed would expend energy in activity. However the activity would quickly become past and the level of energy in the potential would return to near infinite. Near infinite because of the small amount of energy used for creation of spin for coding activity.

Therefore we have a universe that is a chaotic system, self organizing and conserving but conscious of survival enough to code activity. Any element in the system would be supported if it was useful to the continuation of the system. However, any part that was conscious of its participation in the system would also be part of its conscious of self feature. These elements may not be able to control the system but could on some level be able to influence the system by their participation in choice. And now we have the potential for a human experience.

This may not be your story and this may not even be correct but it has potential and a giant view. If you can envision the usefulness in this story join us next year in one of our meditation retreats. Looking forward to your potential.

“Eye of the Wizard”

September 13th, 2015

You are invited to join Deborah in celebration for her release of her new CD!




The Age of Wizardry is upon us. Transport yourself to Music Millennium for an hour in the tower with your fellow freaks donning their finest & strangest Wizard apparel. Come dressed up or down for an hour of wizardry including costume judging with special prizes for the best and most unusual apparel, gift bags to the first 50 to appear, and the chance to meet spellbinding ambient / electro-acoustic artist Deborah Martin (who releases her Spotted Peccary Music label Eye Of The Wizard CD.)

Experience the magic. For fans of Game of Thrones or Lord of the Rings!

cbkDare to appear

Tuesday October 6, 2015

Music Millennium,

3158 East Burnside,

Portland, OR from 7:00 – 8:00PM.


You are Special

September 2nd, 2015

We all have had the pleasure to meet people that “know they are special” or “have been chosen”. They are “spiritual”; “they know their body”; “they have the gift of intuition” and a giant story to justify their view. The rest of us humans are aware of around nine percent of our ambient world and we lock two or three of those percents into fabricating a story that inserts a “conscious of self” piece into that awareness package. Not sure where the idea of “self” comes from when only ten percent of our body is human cells, less than one-tenth of a percent unique genes and all those special thoughts are just a shared stream with the world. I suppose that if you can produce a ubiquitous self from such little resource you could qualify your story by quoting something your mother said to you; or God, your angel or a guide spoke to you. Nice to have a report that someone or something found that elusive self to confer with and produce a story we should all believe in. Perhaps a clue why I retired from facilitating entry level classes.

The only thing to work with in the previous paragraph is the story. What if self is just an imagined story? Yes, the world is full of stuff but we are talking about the
potential of who you are and not the stuff of you. If you “imagine” a story that supports you entertaining an activity that produces a demonstration in life (an event) that is congruent with the real world (world of stuff) your story would be valid. Valid meaning the imagined self is real by virtue of association with everything else that appears real. Crazy doesn’t matter if we are all crazy and we get along most of the time. If we could become disciplined enough to attend to what or how we wish to be in the world we would discover steps or a path to the demonstration. We would need to be willing to lose our story quickly and create a new informed one to meet the designed set-up. We all do design set-ups unconsciously all the time—look at culture, fashion, advertising, social media, etc. And the good news is that if we pull this off two or more times as valid in the world we secure the process—we feel confident (trust our story making).

When you become adept at change and secure in “self” you are ready for what I refer to as higher level training. Not more difficult but rather concepts instead of tasks or abstract techniques. A task is “What do I have to do?”, whereas a state is “Who do I need to be?” The training is to guide you around unconscious speed bumps and release the effort in the demonstration. A task will need effort to accomplish but a state is just a change in definition—a better story. Not after the fact justifying story on how great you are but a story that consistently produce validation in the world. To improve your state you need to redefine as the new potential of you. Thoughts and tasks don’t count here. Not hard but there is a learning curve and a guide proves useful. I’m a guide and the tool is meditation.

Spider Human

August 12th, 2015

Have you ever seen spiders interlock webs? Not be close but attach to each other’s webs. David Abram in his book, The spell of the sensuous, reports witnessing three spiders building interlocking webs in a cave opening in Bali. I don’t believe I have ever noticed connected spider webs. In July there are a lot of spiders seeking a warm lunch on our property. On break from facilitating the new Path of the Mystic retreat, I scouted our garden for joined webs to no avail. This retreat is “in the female voice”, a teaching style not different audio or gender. This change in style along with the content of David’s book inspired me to ask a spider. Now, I didn’t expect the spider to chat with me, less yet preference a male or female reply, but I got an “inspired” answer. The “spider” said that in the opening of a cave there would be nothing else to anchor with except the angle of another web. A larger web would yield more success for all.

The Path of the Mystic is a meditation style retreat dealing with the Shadow. A large part of the resolve for the shadow issue in this format is working with human interconnectedness. You don’t need to know more answers but a moment of connecting with another human enriches your human “intuitive” data-base. The ranges that your intuition uses to compare data with familiar to provide quick choices. The Shadow is just a shadow of a potential piece of data but not supported; not familiar from your personal experience and not grounded or secured as valid normal human activity. A good hunch but more fantasy than real and the choice lacks success as a result.

Asking a question of a spider is very similar to a Google search. I don’t believe my computer is talking or writing to me. We know today that even thoughts are not personal but a shared stream for which you may have added threads which is why it sometimes feels personal. Information from both above sources is impersonal but logical potential data that may prove useful, inspiring or just more human trivia. Potential is a better interface with the experience of life that may produce a better demonstration. Being able to access a more diverse range is a wise set-up for a better quality life-style. Better choices come from better potential data to choose from.

The other Shadow retreat I facilitate, Falling into Grace, incorporates working with higher brain states. Also very useful but more elements to manage and the outcome appears quite different. In this retreat you become a resource for other humans and that connects you. Both share the concept of becoming whole as a community of humans (all potential)rather that the person with the biggest brain. Perhaps a larger web would yield more success for all.

Relationship to Wellness

July 27th, 2015

The special Wellness Code Training for wellness coaches that I have been designing this past year is done and first round of testing the material completed. Feels good and the next test is customers in the wellness end of the insurance market. Please check out www.wellnesscode.org and I encourage you to leave a comment.

After digging deep this year into over forty years of my teaching and facilitating with alternative healings I discovered a theory. Remember, an intuitive theory with all my experience is apt to be one to one and one half times better than chance. I don’t recommend you rush out and change your life but this may be a fun concept to toy with and if you have lots of money you could do some real research. I’ve observed that folks in general establish a sort of benchmark around age thirty-five based on their prior twenty years experience with wellness. If fifteen to thirty-five was a productive positive healthy time or at least an above average mean, the next thirty to forty years bode well for good healthy habits. I have watched people make at will (not sick) healthy lifestyle choices and at thirty their plan secures in a few years as a life-time demonstration. At forty or later it appears to take at least ten years to produce the same caliber of lifestyle change. These observations are based entirely on at will self-control motivated changes. A sickness or being run over by a truck does change the parameters but it still appears tougher in general to secure later in life if the benchmark is unhealthy. My hunch is that those critical twenty years form a Bayesian network.

The first markers I look for to determine a healthy lifestyle are addictions, obsessions and compulsions. The second is a story that justifies your present state. Any type of addiction, OCD or just BS is counter to any form of self-control. A perfect plan is impossible in our imperfect world and all the label awareness will never compensate for markers one and two above.

I have had great success with people later in life (over 35) that just came out of an out-of-control span of life and now desired change. I recommend establishing an external reference with metabolic references added to define a state (emotional mood or attitude). They will need a well mapped ten year plan and the discipline to follow the protocols as close as possible. Not easy but building a new habit that feels good is much easier than discontinuing a bad habit, or a number of them. The secret to success is changing your story and ending all addictions, obsessions and compulsions. Remember, with addictions you may need professional help. Without this step it is rare that I have observed any level of progress toward a life of wellness. The exception is illness or injury and in my mind that is waiting too long to generate change. What motivates you?

Check out Integral

June 9th, 2015

A lot of my students know I have read all of Ken Wilber’s books and now that he is expanding his audience with Superhuman OS, they’re asking if I plan on teaching some integral techniques. I am already doing that, but I frame the material differently. I structure my work on what I observe when people integrate. For example, when we assemble a puzzle we integrate all the pieces into a whole and complete image that resembles the cover of the box. But the experience for most folks is to start by securing the parameter with all the pieces that have a flat edge. Next you sort by color or sub-image and secure an internal part of the design. You systematically process and secure the whole image one piece at a time. Yes, at times you get lucky and find a piece you just intuitively know the location for, but that is not the norm in the process. We don’t say we spent the week integrating a puzzle but we did spend the week securing all the pieces by interlocking them in proper order.

When you stage into another level you explore, sample, discover and secure, and move along. Of course, here too you may have peak experiences but most of the work is securing what you discover. When you manage to secure your parameter by “no” and past agreements as “done” you open up to more interconnectedness as “we.” As you sample through entrainment you secure range in the human data-base, a body reference but not necessarily a personal experience. A reference “like me” but does not need to be “me.” Writers refer to this type of experience as empathy but this term does not account for all the different levels of empathy. At the lowest level it is a request (or demand) for help. I use a different title for the process at higher levels to note the distinguishment. These tastes of other human traits and characteristics enrich your life and the people you share a vulnerable moment with.

With these three elements secured you open to higher states (higher brain states as well as whole complete visions) and meditation reveals new preferences. Selecting and securing a preference directs you to a “gateway” that identifies your unique patterns and loops you back into the creative cycle. At speed these loops become an enlightened experience. You carry your selected preference through the “top” connection of the ascending/descending columns and your selection is created as a demonstration in your life. A creation is not a task so validation is not a required step to support the loop. A fun game and even more fun to see how Ken guides you there. Enjoy the experience however it is framed.

Ten Second Rule

May 9th, 2015

I appreciate all the questions you folks send me and I attempt to answer them all as a personal reply but when I get several questions on the same topic I prefer to respond from this venue. An example is some 10 second rule I mentioned in a past seminar that I believe will become clear as I address our short human “span of attention.” Entertain the concept of sitting outside on a beautiful day staring at a seemingly perfect rose in your garden. How long does it take for you to be distracted from your act of admiration? The average of a minute and a half is not unrealistic. But this time limit reflects the point when you are totally adrift from the then forgotten rose. Difficult to pin down just how long the rose held your total attention. I’m eluding in my “10 second rule” that the drift begins at 10 seconds and completes departure in 90 seconds. May not make an impact on your rose but it will your intuition.

The automatic intuitive system that humans use as a shortcut to evaluate a course of action is triggered by a cue in an event and opens a range with your normal (familiar—worked well in the past) reference as a center point and the two extreme ends produced by your definition of self (limit to what you will accept or expect). Fast, efficient, and works well if the parameters in this event are the same or acceptably close to the benchmark. If there is a deviation your intuition will toss on top another reference. If this is relevant it may guide you to a quick automatic action. If still unsure, intuition will continue to toss out an array of samples. Great automatic system but two flaws show up quickly.

“Power” by my definition is the ability to entertain all sides and points in a decision and have the autonomy and resources to act in any direction you choose. Attention is the key and every distraction reduces attention and accordingly access to power. The power is a consequence of creation which is akin to your presence at the moment of creation—now. With intuition, every few seconds you are distracted by design and all from the past. Faced with a snarling dog you may recall having attempted to pet one in the past. Probably was not a positive experience. If you process this intuitive data fast your hand will be in your pocket, if you get distracted or trance from the terror of the past event your hand may be in the dogs mouth. Ouch!

The second potential mishap with dozens of ranges open is threshold. When there is too much going on you need to pause and start thinking. Thinking filters out intuition and allows you to expand the range (employing both hemispheres of the brain); move the range right or left by “thinking” up (imagination) a new normal; zoom out and make the whole event less important; or just walk away and find your presence before you address the event again. Rarely is anyone satisfied with a decision they made under threshold. Afterwards you are forced to make up a story to justify your action and become custodian of the illusion.


Another Story

April 5th, 2015

When I was a little kid I made up stories, told stories and loved to listen to stories. Adults were impressed with my great imagination. Obviously the word imagination meant to concoct stories. Playing with story plots must have strengthened my memory because by first grade one reading by my grandmother of my school book committed it to my memory. I did great with grades in reading but I never learned to read. In fact I never read a book until late in high school. Once discovered I loved reading; all the stories I missed I devoured ferociously. I continued with the art of telling stories but now they were from books. Occasionally I would retell a story from a purported author’s book but discovered later to my chagrin that the story was not to be found in the text. In was in the style of the noted author but nowhere logged in manuscript. I was confident with my memory but bewildered by my performance.

Life got busy and less time for stories and fewer folks willing to listen. In job trainings I often performed in an advanced fashion. I didn’t believe the compliments offered me. I was sure the techniques I demonstrated were in the training manual but I failed to find it scouring the manual later. The word imagined transcended from stories to thoughts for me. I could imagine a thought out of thin air.

I was certain that if I could imagine a thought I could build a story around it. Very useful skill but thoughts weren’t always forthcoming. If I had to write a paper, do a talk or teach a class I frequently struggled finding that magic thought to seed the project. I started to believe, “right thought only at the right time.” Marrying my imagination to time and thought was a tragic downfall. I was forced to take notes in an attempt to not lose crucial data and maintain job performance. The magic was lost and replaced with content specific information. Boring effort became the new rule.

At some point I agreed to teach a series of classes that I had the curriculum for. I was very confident until a week before the first class when I reviewed my notes. The teaching concepts were sound but the curriculum targeted a much different type of student than the ones I planned to teach. I had made the commitment and there was no turning back. Internal reflection revealed the old familiar feeling from the days of magic past. I didn’t get an answer but a moment of enlightenment. Not the first time in my life but definitely more intense.

Imagination now was not knowing, not a thought or a story, but trusting and allowing for discovery to take place. Each week I found a book, article, or a story that inspired that weeks class material. It was so simple and the joy of storytelling was rekindled in my heart.
Secure the idea of you with enough confidence and worthiness to trust the path before you. Not an easy task to find that balance point and wise to occasionally seek assistance. Trust restores imagination and will, the true autonomy of choice. Can you imagine that?

Pay Attention

March 9th, 2015

We recognize that attending to our garden, to our health or to a loved one can make a difference.  In fact, there are usually more life situations vying for our attention than we have time to attend to.  What wins the game?  How do we decide what to attend to and how well do we hold that focus?

Physics puts forth the concept that attention may facilitate transformation of energy into form; the essence of creation.  May be more complex than simple attention but attention is an element of the process.  If we include the concept of self into one third of the spaces designated for everything we are aware of, not as a focus on self but inclusion of self in every idea, picture, event and experience, we generate a very powerful consciousness.  The very nature of our creation─our presence─would be present in every process of life.  Little chance that we could be left out, ignored or even victimized.  And since energy “in” mirrors energy “out” we would possess greater ability to attend to others.

While distraction appears to reduce our relationship to power (less energy to get work done) it improves growth.  Growth is our ability to discover steps or directions to improve our potential; efficiency, skill, range in processing as well as envisioning and integrating it all into life and interpersonal communications.  It may be wise to learn to strike a balance by becoming more disciplined in our relationship with distractions.

As a normal human starts to experience a new event, intuition searches the familiar database and presents a reference (perhaps a picture).  If you are secured (certain what works for you) with the idea of you, you have around 10 seconds to make a decision based on what is your secured familiar reference is for such an event. After 10 seconds intuition presents an array of past experiences; some worked and others didn’t.  Next intuition tosses out credible references told to you as stories. Give me a break─going through this complex intuited list makes decision making near impossible and frequently wrong.  Pause and observe as all the bull-sh.. passes.  Conservation rules and you need to go through the list before you produce enough gamma in the brain to veil intuition.  Yes, you are going to burn calories because you now need to analyze the event to make a wise decision.  The good news is that if you attend to this present moment event and think about choices your intuitive database will update.  Attending to the choices or the thought-out choice long enough imprints subconscious with discernment between events and improves the content of your intuitive searches.

Intuition is always on; it is automatic and it feels valid or correct. Your attention is the tool that integrates potential.  Intuition, like a computer, is a great tool for speed and efficiency if it is regularly updated.  Growth is supported by attention and not intuition.

The Intuition Story

February 4th, 2015

Can you imagine someone else as correct without you believing you are wrong? Intuition establishes a sensory benchmark that serves as a reference for improvement but at some point this process becomes a limitation. This act of rising to a comparative level is supported by agreements know as family, business or culture. The only state of being that doesn’t need an agreement to maintain is creation. An agreement is an investment of energy to generate a force that represents the capacity of a projected potential from creation. This force makes the participants feel alive (movement) and supports what they believe (the pattern of how they move). If the force is not here now the agreement is an illusion. If it is never here it is a delusion. If you experience some emotions the agreement has touched reality. Very little here to validate the participants. If the agreement produces emotions and is here now you have a reality and the participants are now valid. Humans are valid by being present now (a creation) and thus the agreement has served its purpose to awaken them and is no longer needed. You are now valid and secured (done with the agreement).

Agreements and intuition are useful utilities. Failure to secure from agreements relegates you to being only valid as an object, a member of the agreement. Intuition may be subverted if you don’t frequently update your sensory references by interactions with other folks, by updating external references through meditation and actively sampling new events in life. If you insist on being stuck with an outdated picture that is not congruent with life now you will need to avoid the above three activities. You become a recluse and the popular style for that today is depression.

Most all humans begin life with an agreement called family. We are assigned a role, and with luck some tolerance that your patterns tailor that position to allow a congruent human story to develop. At some point you outgrow the limited part assigned and secure how you have developed. You are done with that character and step away to design a new role in culture. Securing each step of development builds a valid foundation for actualizing potential beyond agreements.
But why do we develop as a story line? For that insight we need to look at how stories serve both agreements and development. For example, we might create a conversation about how bright or how effective a light bulb may be in a dark room but we don’t include the fact that it blinks; AC current is alternating. The story about the light bulb is necessary to define shared parameters supporting the valid nature of the event; an experience that is real. The truth, the light blinks, is not relevant to validation. And the fact that all objects blink is filtered out by refresh rate because that fact is not relevant to human’s need to believe that objects and humans are valid if they match a predictable reality. If your conscious story, the story about you now, is secured with the perception that you are valid now you will feel emotion as the projected energy creates life congruent to your design. Remember, your state of being is either selected by emotions that feed the task of reality (effort) or the flow of creation. Choice wise for a new you!