Magic Growing Up

October 5th, 2017

Aleister Crowley  said “Magick is the science and art of causing change to occur in conformity with will” (Magick in Theory and Practice).  You might think that a young boy who understood that concept and produced several demonstrations pre-nine would be obsessed with a long list of “I wants” but that was not my state.  I was fascinated that such potential was difficult to keep conscious and the results never felt real in the body.  Jean Piaget , I discovered later, would say I had not developed the structure yet to understand the experience.  Sure enough, six years later I was lost in a very dark woods and I requested, out loud, with no real ears to hear, help seeing in this total darkness.  A glow came and lit the path through the overgrown woods to safety.  I know, this is all crazy stuff but I got a clue to my magic.

Perhaps two clues  but it took some years to sort them out.  This reported event was a “request”, a genuine need and not an experiment.  The universe is made of stuff and space with some type of force in the space.  The stuff is defined and has location; the nature of stuff is limitation.  Imagination would thrive in the space and there is force to drive or create.  I didn’t request a flashlight, map or even a guide.  It was a request to imagine seeing in the dark.  Dark would be the imagined absence of light; right.  A normal human need is a demand (i.e., “I can’t see”)—communication about stuff from stuff—a personal defined me or my issue.  If you “will” a change you need to talk to the purveyor of change.  The value of stuff and most things defined is that they are redundant and predictable; resistant to change by design.  A demand is a statement not willing to except a no, the world of redundant stuff and rejection to change.  Imagination requires the full spectrum of possible, and better yet, a secure “no” provides steps or gradients in imagination without an absolute no or not possible.  Potential and absolute are an oxymoron.

Second clue was that the request was from some felt point internal to a potential external.  It was not a request for survival for that is not even a range, and give me a break, secured on one end with an absolute; death.  This was from a genuine internal feeling that a potential existed but it was not within my limited range, which of course is why it would be external.  Uncertain, unknown but possible with a tiny bit of trust which is what potential really is.  Again, this second clue required that I mature in structure.  To understand the value of life you need to clean your room, put your toys away and do your chores.  Growing up is essential to perceive potential.  Your years of discipline work has paid off.



The First Magic

September 24th, 2017

In my preschool writing tablet I recorded my name, age of six and two sentences: “Everything is a glow.  Everything is united.” I saw “glows” in and around people, animals, most plants and some objects.  These glows when quizzed talked to me; in my head of course.  Yes, I spent a lot of time alone but magic for me at six was communication from a perceived glow of light.  I recall seeing a cool “art deco style chair” in the dump.  The chair of a king, perhaps, and in our local dump.  From the safe edge of the dump I noticed a faint glow in the chair but it was reluctant to respond to my inquiry about  its association to royalty.  I persisted with “why are you there?”  The glow raised above the chair and replied with a resounding “I hold form.”  I got a clue to the source of my glows and I never believed glows to be guides, ghosts or souls of the dead.  By age seven I experimented successfully with creating an image of an object, sending it to someone and observing them act on it.  No words, clues or body language utilized.  At seven I inspired my mother to buy me a pipe rack and humidor.  I had no idea what the thing was but I saw it in a store window on a walk alone and sent the “picture” to mom.  And I have no idea how she even found the silly thing or why she went into that little cigar store downtown.  Magic by seven had matured for me to having my statement of will materialize.

I discovered that glows are “imagined ideas” with enough attention on them to make them “glow.”  I also learned that it is a challenge to hold a subconscious idea conscious and attend to it for any length of time.  And the physical object, the pipe rack, was my anchor to keep the experiment in reach of my conscious awareness.  The story felt very much like a dream and would have been quickly forgotten or perceived an imagined event.  The glows eventually faded and transformed to pure kinetic perception and today I know that it is the repetition, the redundancy, of the attention and not the duration.  Is that not what the advertising industry does to put a purchase idea into our world?

All the atoms in the Universe blink and therefore we must blink.  I know you don’t feel the exchange when the atoms in the chair you are sitting on transform into the mass called you.  That is fine, there is a very long list of ideas we hold true that are not really a truth in demonstration.  As all of this starts to become conscious the nature of truth will be shaken for all of us and that is why I’m facilitating a webinar on “Surviving the Cultural Change.”

The magic in your world will change as your world changes.  It lives just at the edge between structure (what we know that works) and imagined potential (what we don’t know that may work better).  The Cultural Memes may grow the structure but you need to cultivate your magic.



Wise to have a bigger view

September 9th, 2017

As many of you know, I have all of Ken Wilber’s books and I like his written material.  With his training programs, his model and his target group are different than mine but I believe his work is valid.  He is working with the leading edge “Post-modern” group of “elites” that are destined to enact their Post-modern cultural change and his model is a little complicated for most.  I prefer the larger wave of “modern” folks growing away from the “traditional” period and acclimating to this rational but quick changing wave of cultural change.  I think most folks need time to secure into the demand of the “modern” wave.  The absence of an absolute truth is not an easy adjustment and some training will aid in learning to secure into other options than the partial truth, the truth now.  Ken speaks of partial truth being a property of Post-modern but I see that predominates in the Modern wave group I’m working with.  I imagine this could be the “green meme” bleeding into my otherwise “orange” circle.

Ken has just released three new books and in Integral Meditation he makes point of the fact that everyone needs to Grow Up as well as Wake Up.  For all of you out there that participated in my Preceptorial Training Program, he is now acknowledging working with stages to mature (Our first two years of training) as you Wake Up to progressions in states.

The next book is Trump and a Post-truth World.  Short and a good read. Ken believes all this chaos is a self-correction and his material does support a bigger view of the destruction we are witnessing every day in the news.  Nice to find something hopeful to entertain.

And the last is a monster 800 plus page book entitled The Religion of Tomorrow.  Big books are difficult to carry around and it took me over a year to finish Sex, Ecology, Spirituality.  I scanned through the new book and have not found a compelling page to lock in my attention but I’m hopeful.  I recommend all three but have not read the third one yet.  But with “Rome” burning I think we all need something to fill the time.


A Work Along a Stream

August 29th, 2017

A range with a secured thread in gradients running end to end would afford you the ability to project the concept of you at any useful location in the range and to both move your location at will and to zoom in or out to determine levels of discernment.  A range secured with no would be 100% “no” at one end and at the other end “no” would be nonexistent.  Yes is the default setting to produce a state of being—yes, I am.  Some examples are, one could say no to smoking whether they ever had that habit or not.  But the end point, or any point, never forms an absolute.  You could say no to cake but on a friend’s birthday indulge.  You could be open to accept all gifts but still decline something illegal or stolen.  Do you see how this style of range gives more autonomy than a dichotomy with zero in the center splitting the range as opposites?  And with a secured range you can zoom in to make a detailed discernment and then zoom out to gain an overall view.  No is a very powerful tool.

You may enrich and expand the power of your ranges and if you have an interest, join my webinar on “Surviving the cultural changes.”  But before you chase off seeking more wisdom and tricks let us take a deeper look at life with a secured range.  I invite you to return for a moment to the metaphor of a stream from last month’s blog.  A stream does not produce the water or even alter the quantity.  At best a stream distributes water wherever it wanders guided by the direction of the lowest path.  It seeks a balance in level and “moves” to discover it.  Water is a traditional metaphor for the  force or energy of life and I used the concept of a stream as a potential with movement and location metaphorically as a human life potential.  Again, with the caution that this is just a model; a conception tool.  The question at this point is where does a “stream” disconnect from its potential.

Not just the existential, losing connection to source, but every deviation in a stream will be very abstract because it is a object.  At best we may consider a list of things that happen to streams.  Streams get diverted by landslides, beavers and power plants to name a few.  The blocking could be so great that the stream becomes a puddle, pond or a lake.  It could merge with another stream and lose all identity or contribute to grandness; perhaps useful as shipping or agricultural.

Humans also require movement, real or imagined.  But for humans balance, or structure, is paramount.  Their potential often gets diverted by distraction (drugs, booze, sex, shopping, etc.) and they confuse knowing for a direction or a catalyst.  A range from inspiration to obsession.  They frequently hold on to past concepts or events as a truth and lose sight of potential.  A range from a positive trigger to total depression.  And they crave interpersonal relationships, joining groups and altruist causes.  This range spans from being enriched by interpersonal relationships to being a burned-out devotee.  A human is not a stream but you can walk with another human along a stream and notice the “stream” of their potential, or better yet, your stream.




Food in your future?

July 28th, 2017

A new stream, creek, brook or river may wander changing course frequently during its youthful years.  They all have a source and a downhill invitation to explore, some born with a route and others develop their track within the range the path to the ocean.  All streams must adhere to conservation for the available supply of water is finite in a closed system.  If two or more streams merge, one or all will lose continuation of its label; not the fault of the path but the choice of the one who names.  Purpose is also left to chance with no requirement for a stream to do, only to be.  Slope and volume provide the drive but these elements offer no more importance than distance and service.  Beauty brings attention to a stream and fall adds charm and sound.  The stream banks form to secure the boundaries reserving the privilege to outstretch when required.  Its destiny lies in the hands of nature and man.  The value of all is eminent in the movement of water.

Dear water, clear water, playful in all your streams,
As you dash or loiter through life who does not love
To sit beside you, to hear you and see you,
Pure being, perfect in music and movement?

Stream by Szots Andras

When you are a small part of a very large scheme it is difficult to comprehend the whole so we design a metaphoric model.  Great tool but risky when you attempt to compare the process of an object to the process of a human.  Void of documented proof that aliens have contributed anything to our plant renders our world a closed system.  Conservation stands but I believe we are not lacking anything, the distribution is only way out of balance.  People are self-corrective systems, and unsecured, they maintain this state of imbalance as a redundant anchor (survival).  The avoidance of change and the fear (threshold) to embrace a random potential generates some interesting and familiar scenarios.  How many folks are waiting for someone to provide a plan to produce this needed balance?  How many accept this “state of lacking” anticipating balance post-mortem?  How many participate in maneuvers (distractions-sex, drugs and whatever) to avoid the gateway to potential—threshold;  an engagement moving faster than you can control?  Every stream begins as a flood; out of control water.

To develop the personal discipline to secure no as an action in your everyday life is the first step to converting those human filters from expecting less to accepting a preference as a gain.  Our immune system is our biological no.  Laws form our cultural/social no.  We inhabit the “water” planet and what we both share is a need for containment as structure to guide the movement to a useful potential.  How many floods have we humans incurred in our history?  How many floods have you experienced?  Time to take the action of securing “no.”


A Stream

June 28th, 2017

Can you imagine having no form and being somewhere in weird formless void?  You could be a thought, a comparative thought rather than competitive thought.  Human children seem to arrive in form with comparative awareness for which Fisher Price has made a fortune.  A comparative thought would not need to be an element of space and time (object), but it would need a consideration that something preempted such a state of being—a creation for potential to be.  Such an act would by design be impersonal and timeless or there would exist a preference (bias) rather than a potential to compare.  A comparative though would be essential if you were to select a preference.  Of course, choosing a potential would be the only act you could orchestrate and you could perform such a task by attention to that partiality.  Consider attention as a state of consciousness characterized by a concentration on a single thought, especially one preferentially selected from a complex, with a view to limiting or clarifying receptivity by narrowing the range of stimuli (dictionary reference).  I consider that such a level of concentration would generate compression leading to form but if you’re uncomfortable with that, we could at least agree that it would produce a force.

Potential is the capacity of being or becoming.  Aware is the state or condition of having knowledge; consciousness.  The root for the word aware is wary or cautious.  The force has become an energy that has moved the potential into a range from known to new; out of a redundancy or survival.  Now we have a game that may lead to experience, the state of having done something.  To maintain the initial state of balance from being potential without preference, all potential would need to be energized into a chaotic deterministic state—still in balance but activated (modeled after but independent of the creation state—a movement from timeless).  Each created potential would those become a vector, an expression of force with a directional arrow.  An attention to a preference in potential would direct a comparative thought into an energy force that I call a “stream.”  Can you imagine being a stream of energized potential with a starting point and a direction?

I envision compression because I believe form is coded by torque or particle spin which sufficient compression would cause.  The number of streams may be finite but within the containment (again, compression) of a potential each stream would be near infinite (all possible within range).  A moving stream needs to deal with speed bumps and distractions.  When humans experience such they torque, get ill and adrift of their stream (or path); my view.  Perhaps this is a large enough splash for one month.  Next month we will explore the potential of a meandering stream.









Another Complection

May 22nd, 2017

Special thanks to all of The Order of The Ascended Rose staff and teachers.  Because of your diligence I was able to initiate the Preceptorial Training Program and the Advanced Healing Techniques Program.  Fun programs and they both continued for a time after OAR closed down.  Three years ago I taught the final Healing program and dumped the material, handouts, notes, etc.  The last two folks in the PTP program should have graduated in September of 2016 but instead we have our final meeting this May.  I have closed that program but saved the core of the material to design the site next winter.  Perhaps another fun adventure and a chance to share again with past staff and teachers.

The goal of Preceptorial Training was to provide folks with an opportunity to learn that a reaction is not a choice.  Power is the ability to perceive two or more options and choice a preference; consciously.  All choices bear consequences and the most important fact may just be making the choice.  When I started PTP my vision was to provide four post-PTP Graduate retreats.  The events started out as a Spring Break retreat weekend but the topics were too large to do in a single weekend.  I attempted to split the topics but difficult to hold continuity for two events a year apart.  I redefined the four topics as four week-long meditation retreats.  Great when at a retreat location away from home but weak when done close to home to accommodate folks price-wise.  The 2016 Spring Break Retreat was beyond the range of the four topics and I only did it because I got inspired by some of Ken Wilber’s events.  The 2017 Spring Break was the final PTP event and an in-depth version of the 2016 event.  We are now done!

As closure to the Preceptorial Program I would like to comment on the need for the four follow-up topics.  These created more confusion and questions than anything else in the body of work.  As a metaphor, imagine talking a friend into purchasing a hand gun.  They might gain a sense of power and security with their new acquisition.  For sure they will need to increase their attention.  This act alone should make them more conscious and accountable for their actions.  An unconscious reaction with a gun places you in the realm of a shadow experience.  You may have lost control but you are still accountable.  Two much structure may also blind-side a person.  There is no perfection in the human experience and even less in the unconscious habitual side.  If you follow all the rules with attention on the rules and not the gun you are open to shadow also.  You have to be present all the time.  To make that stipulation you need to perceive a value for your relationship to and with a weapon.  A value may establish a state of you being a conscious pistol shooting enthusiast.  These four topics complete the work and secure the range and potential for you to fulfill your initial vision when joining PTP.  Thanks—it has been fun.


Happy Webinar

April 25th, 2017

I know I retired, but I miss saying the same thing over and over in a different way each time hoping that someone might get enough inspiration to produce a demonstration in life called happy.  We do all wish to be happy.  I learned my secret from my mother.  I think she was happy when she complained and the family loved her spotlight on what needed to be done.  We all need to learn to be done.

My present complaint story is that we humans need to be done with the outdated group cultural guidance and embrace the new package.  To a great degree we are in fact doing just that but with a lot of resistance.  The old psychic saying: The greater the resistance the bigger the truck wreck.  Wake up and read the news, we now have a truck wreck and more trucks are en route.  I’m happy because I’m old and retired but the rest of you need to embrace the new cultural theme and raise a creative process that may assist the resistance group to abandon the now dysfunctional past.  Stop the trucks!

If none of this makes any sense it is because it is all unconscious; and that fact  does not liberate you from the effect of the event.  The good news is, if it can affect your state of being then your action in being may affect it.  Now we have a game and games are fun.  I’m happy and I love to play games so I’m going to facilitate a webinar for one plus hours a month with techniques to “Survive  the new cultural premise and secure done with the last one.”  I’m not getting any younger so perhaps we can complete this in a year and get everyone happy.  I know I will be happy because I’m going to charge you something.  But just in case you are a little like my mother was, I will field one e-mail a month from you with your complaints or questions.  Of course, if you can join in at the scheduled time for the webinar you may also ask questions live.  We are all going to be happy and have fun.

Load a free application from to prepare for the webinar. The first of the twelve webinars will be May 16th at 1 PM PST and you will get an invitation with a code to enter the event.  If you don’t get an invitation—it is not because I don’t like you—I’m just getting old, but I would be happy to send you an invitation in reply to your e-mail—just make the request.  This first one is free; are you happy now?  The next eleven are $15 each paid in advance (you need a new code each time) or $100 for all eleven in one payment.  You may send me a check (8016 NE 30th Ave. Vancouver WA 98665) or use PayPal on the side bar.  If you’re not retired like I am you may be busy working at the scheduled time for the event.  When each webinar is over I will post a video copy on my private YouTube channel and send the link to all the folks that paid.  I will add a page to my website ( that will have the projected schedule for the series, hopefully a copy of the first video and some notes as needed.  Wait a week after the webinar and then send me your one e-mail with any question(s) related to the content.  I will field your question(s) and this process will continue for the remaining months.  I’m happy to be of service.


Time for a Habit

March 3rd, 2017

Recall please the nature of the particle/wave relationship from science.  Testing (expectation) determines the state of a unit of energy.  With a particle (object) you have something doing nothing; and with a wave (force) doing anything possible to nothing.  (Reality is the expectation that most energies perceived are objects.)  The nature of creation is pure potential in a state of equilibrium with no demonstration (preference, bias, action, movement).  However, in this static state the streams of potential could be defined (sorted), without movement or position, of course.  We would still have no actions or locations.  Toss this into a deterministic chaotic system (our universe) and we get vectors marking the possible directions and locations of all the streams of potential.  Still no action but a perception of locations to support movement (reference point).  A preference would be a demonstration in “time” of a you (or I) with attention to a preferred stream of potential and that would yield a location associated with the stream.  All of this exists in a state, a chaotic case, in equilibrium.  At the moment of bifurcations (right time) the you/I could insert with its attention a preference (choice) and then we would have a game.

The stream now moving along a chosen path is programmed with linear spin and now we enter the human life game.  Yes, no idea what the you/I could be as an object but I could imagine a force with drive to sway a choice.  I believe that it could be possible to play with every occurrence in a stream of potential as a force.  In the human life game, obviously along with the inception of form is a certain level of objectification.  Transference from the state as a wave to the state as an object establishes entropy and the game ends before all potential is realized.  The way of the grasshopper.

The skill you will need to play this game of life would be a span of attention long enough to generate a state of force; the power to execute a choice (capable of operating from any of the options) and the discipline with awareness to execute your choices from being present as a thread in the stream of your potential and not a shadow produced by a distraction in the stream (perhaps you at a different moment in time).  Practice in securing parameters and past experience (real or imagined) are essential along with the skill to relate to other humans and differentiate their potential stream choices from options within your stream.  Others are a very large source of distraction because we are such social creatures.  In other words, we need to pay attention because the actions of the person next to us will have an effect on us, realizing it consciously or not.  This is a fun game with the end result being the same no matter how well you play—we all die with the best players perhaps gaining a few moments of time.  Enjoy the time spent in the habit of being you.